pooo.

saturday

softball party was funn.
came and then did nothing for a while
lisa kept saying steph was hot and had the figure and everything
haha. she always had.
and she wears those kind of clothes because in thailand america school they all do.
i guess shes changed. cos last time she was like me like we didnt wear those kind of clothes
mainly boyish crap but now shes become a little worldly. heh. i dont know what to be like around her sometimes.

anywayy. just crapped about. later we had the barbeque. was funn. got pushed into the water by shanise -mkes bratty face. heh. shanise i did not push you first i had no intention of doing that! poo. the water felt all oily. later it got more oily cos coach kept dunking everyones shoes inside haha ew. then fang and the rest who werent already in the water pushed coach inside with his shoes and socks. we were really polluting the pool. haha.

then we threw his sock up a tree branch hahaha.

me erica shanise sonia jessie had our hopeless barbeque. heh. cos lisa and fang and some others wouldnt let us help. then they screamed at us for eating all the food and not helping to barbeque. roar.

so then some kind ppl using the barbeque pit next to ours lent it to us cos they didnt need it anymore. so we mananged to barbeque some chicken and sausages and pork thingies haha not like i did much. anyway then we ahd our hopeless feast hahaha. it wasnt too bad heh. then played in the pool somemore. erica and jean had their sit on someones back and fight compeition haha. then we took photos and coach and fang sprayed coke and stuff on us and threw orange skin and stuff. the place was really messy after that. anywayy. it was fun.

i wonder why the truth must be hidden; isnt truth meant to be told? so why must it be kept from us? maybe the truth will hurt but not knowing is worse. not knowing makes me pissed, like...putting my right shoe one before my left. i want to know, i dont want to be kept wondering wandering. and the others should know too because..well i dont know but i dont know. i dont know...i dont get anything anymore.

today

finallyy freedom. chinese tests makes me feel like im trapped in the cage. chinese test was horriibllee. the front part was really easy but not the comprehension! it was sooo harrddd sigh. i just know im going to fail. i was like spending so much time wondering what on earth the paragraph meant then i looked at my watch and i realised i had only SIX minutes left. so i just scribbled some crap off the passage then scribbled some crap about i think that commercials can give us knowlege and EXPERIENCE oh mann. i am so shittedly ddeaaddd.

anyway whatever. its just that..everyone in class is so smart i dont know.
the english teacher is so annoying.
"no talking please, huh, if you have any questions ask me."
-sticks head right and left
"*name* was that you talking? no talking, if you have any questions ask me"
"*name*no talking please, did you ask about this question, huh, is that what you were asking?"
ahhh! just shut up pleassseeee. if you even breath loudy she'll tell you no talking please, if you have any questions ask me. honestly. grrr.

coach is gone.

sigh.
i never thought it would happen so fast, i never really thought so much about it but

now its no more coach forever and the new coach

every week its the new coach

no more joking around, playing fun, laughing

i know they say softball you have to be serious about it

but you also have to enjoy yourself, dont you?

how can you just be so serious and play so serious, and dont even shout and laugh and joke around? training wont be as much fun anymore will it? even if you do we a game its not as much good as winning it WITH coach. i mean, he was the one who made us the way we were now and built up or character wasnt he?

i dont know what the teachers were thinking. i dont think getting us a new coach will make us more enthusiastic and excited about softball. maybe it'll help improve our skills but what good is skills if you dont like the coach and so you dont enjoy trng? playing a compeition is more fun when youre serious, but not too serious, and you laugh and make jokes.

these coaches seem to think seriousness is everything. the cresent girls, they dont even look as happy as we did when they train, or play a game. we laugh and joke around but they dont do any of that. what good is that? i dont get it.

i dont get anything anymore.

right now i dont get how to turn this term into equal 0. siggghhh.

its so messy but who cares.
sigh.
i hope i dont fail geog test.
its like im failing everything.
hope nobody takes over my softball position.
the new ppl are so good already.

lalala.

i should go study.

manged to skip piano lesson todayy.
((:
haha.
cos i took my brothers one last week cos he couldnt
so its only fair he take mine this week right?
but he still didnt want to
he is so annoying
so i told the whole world that
then when my teacher came
i pretended to sleep
so then my brother had to take mine too
heheh
((x

yuli is so good at chinese.

im bored.

tag ppl.

poo.

i should go

heheh.

ppl in class are nice. but i dont know. havent made so many new friends yet. sec 2 camp is going to succkk. wish i was in olson 11.

i really should go.

haha.

you know right, when you have internet problems on one computer user, do the other users get affected too?

i seriously hope nottt. and i seriously hope that the problems before dont happen agaainn. sigh. actually i dont know if it was blogger but i think it might have been.

anywayyy. im getting a blog againn. i dont know why. actually i think it was cos i saw some nice blogskins and pics and i just like had to use them and where else to use but a blog?
haha. i mean nice pics and nice skin, you cant let it go to waste right? haha.

so i probably wont like update so often. cos im mainly doing it for the pics. heh.
besides.
i forgot how to post like myself before.
heh.